More time has passed and one thing I've wanted to practice is finding optimism. Romanticizing the little things in life like a warm sunny evening, a cold beverage after working all day, or sitting with the family on a nice drive. The term is ending soon and I've been finding it passing a little too fast.
I had my hair cut again, a shorter length for maintenance but also for the warm days. I've also been listening to some new music, finding new rifts to vibe to as I've been working on my novel. Porter Robinson released his new album, not my preferred sound, but still good.
I am at 40+ pages in my manuscript and have returned to self-doubt. Even though I've written for many years, I still find myself questioning my abilities. I am self-taught, everything I've learned was either through reading books online, watching YouTube videos or partially napping through my English classes. I've been reading other books on Amazon and getting samples to see how the writers captivate their audiences. My main problem is telling versus showing; my book is written in the third person omniscient perspective so I can say anything. I'm still contemplating, but I know I am going to have the book edited before publication, so I shouldn't worry too much.
Till then, I am working again, making connections in hopes of pursuing one of my main dreams and pushing forward.
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